WILL contain adult language, topics, and oversharing. You've been warned!
9/7/25:
Anyway, what about you?
Somedays I feel like I live on this laptop, other times I barely touch it. I understand the desire by a lot of people, myself sometimes included, to cut out screen time. I think if I didn’t do so much reading on my tablet or watching movies/tv shows/listen to music through my laptop things would be different. I love the idea of enjoying the “physical copy” of all this media, but when you’re broke and impulsive that gets in the way often lmao. I really do try to use the local library as much as humanly possible, though. I love the two near my house! The closer one is a lot smaller though, since it’s such a small town...the next one is about 25-30 minutes away near my work and it’s amazing. I want to hang out there after work all the time and I often do lol. It’s partly a historical (former obviously) home so I get to look at beautiful antique furniture through some of the windows, it feels like a place made just for me! But back to subject, a place made just for you is such an important thing, even if it’s small. It could be your phone, or your tablet, or desk, or even your bed. Unfortunately, I think the locations of these personal places can indeed shape you and your habits. If your bed is the only place you feel is for you, it’s probably going to mean you’re in there a lot, for example. I suppose this is why it’s so paramount to make many places in your life your own. I know that the more I did this, the better I felt about my life and where I wanted to go with it. I got to know myself a lot better, because I was asking myself what I wanted and liked on a regular basis and seeing a space reflect that.
And of course, isn’t that what making personal static websites is about? I think that’s what draws most people in. The allure of a place that can be entirely, down to the details, your own, cannot be overstated in an online world that’s becoming less customizable.
I know growing up with the ability to change my theme on most things whenever I felt like it has spoiled me, and that’s totally fine that it did.
Now I’m learning new things just to be able to gain that control again!
Sorry I’m not really rambling too much about my own life, but not much is going on.
I am honestly thankful for that, I just want to read my little books and drink my little iced coffee and vibe for a little bit. I have been adding little things to this site as you can see, and I’ve been doing a lot of surfing the internet archive, so most of what I’m doing is connected to that. I guess everything else I’m doing is just like, really adult-y and errand-y and basically boring, I get no enjoyment of talking at length about those
things lol. I got a bottle of hazelnut syrup on sale for a dollar yesterday!
This is the current excitement lol and I am very fond of this sort of calm and mundane. I actually have read two comics from the library, both biographies, and one a very much dislike, so I may make a whole post just ranting about it and how the other book does a much better job lmao. I really need to join like goodreads or something! Also as of now I really haven’t been playing much video games except for picking up tetris and playing a random game when I need to let out some frustation or anxiety sometimes. It works, tetris is kinda one of the goats for that reason lol. Anyway, still chipping away at the class but I’m nearly done. Let’s go do something else now! Byebye! 
9/2/25:
Hello! I guess we’re in a new month! September feels like it came up even faster than August. I do have a blog that I failed to actually post in August that I finally put up, so there’s that if it matters to you. Completely understandable if not, these things get ranty and rambly often, which makes me sometimes unsure about making them seen by others. I actually had a pretty great weekend, but today has just been annoying. Mainly just the whole cramps from hell thing like usual, but also I got stung by a wasp earlier lol because I was outside talking to the maintenance guy. I didn’t even do anything, I was just chilling minding my business when I saw it stabbing my arm. What a dick!
Remember when I said I’d dedicate to the whole Python thing for real this time? I am actually doing that. 
Of course, right now it’s gotten harder and harder to bring myself to do it, and to keep going when I get started, but I’m sure that’s to be expected, and I’m powering through anyway. I think the monthly hormone change also is a factor, because in general I am more sluggish, and I struggle to fully concentrate on anything. I’ve been awful at getting enough sleep for the past couple weeks now, so I’m really going to have to change that. I changed my VLC skin so now I’m watching the videos on a Hannah Montana PSP while I code along lol.
I’ve been reading craft magazines more lately, and I really have to thank the Internet Archive for that.
The ones from the 70s and from Japan are my favorites! It’s so nice to just chill out to a magazine sometimes. I’ve read a couple manga, too, which is more and more rare for me. I think that’s for the best, since I can get way too into one and I’ll destroy my sleep schedule entirely just to know what happens in a manga of questionable quality. To be honest, a good fanfic can to this too, and a couple books have done this to me, but the bar for manga hitting this point is very low lmfao. 
Can you believe my neck is still a bit stiff and sore for last week? It’s nearly better, but it’s taking forever to heal. 
Anyway, I’m slowly adding stuff to that fanpage of mine. I’m sure I’ll be more driven the more I revisit the media each character is from. So that means I’ll probably be really seldom about updating it until the lightning strikes (see what I did there?). I like making things for other people to use, but my website here isn’t made with that as it’s core purpose. I don’t think it would be a good idea to expect that from me, because it’s just not what most of this website is. I make stuff for the fun of it, mostly. I think if I reach a point where I’ve made a bunch of things that others can use I’ll just put it all on my first website and put a link to that here. Or something. 
Okay, enough piddling about. I’m either going to work on my Python class or take a nap!! Byebye! 